Sometimes when you are too deep inside, you need a 3rd party perspective to get a clearer picture. I think I have become too engrossed in my own doubts that it has clouded my vision.

Have thought too much. Have become too sensitive. Have become too insecure. Have become too demanding. Have become too self-centered. Have neglected the other party's feeling. I have sunk deeper into my own world. Sunk deeper into my own thoughts and imagination that I've become oblivious to the reality. Become too paranoid. Become too skeptical. Become too doubtful. At a loss of what to do.

Luckily been able to withdraw myself out before I sink deeper into my own moody world. Thanks to another perspective, which made me realise that I've always been taking things for granted. I have reached the stage that I believed that whatever I've been receiving is not a privilege but an entitlement. But it has dawned unto me that this is not the case. I have mistaken these privileges as entitlements coz I have been getting it without realising my fortune. I have been clouded by my own high expectations without realising that my demands have skyrocketed to an unreasonable stage. Yet these unreasonable demands have always been fulfilled.

Thankfully I've snapped out of my own world. Thanks to that 1 sentence. That particular 1 sentence help to bring me back to the reality. That 1 sentence help to clear up my foggy vision. That 1 sentence help to pull me out from my moodiness. My vision is not as blur as before. Everything has become clearer. I've become even more certain now.

Back from Japan for about 2 days.. Hahaha but very lazy to write about my trip!!! It's fun of course!! lol.. Plus i get to see my darling.. But realise that I miss him more after the trip back.. 1 week is just not enough!!! ok shall write abt my trip next time wen i have the mood lolx..