Saturday, May 24, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
yoz ahling, this is my baby, pickles. Very CUTE hor!!!!!!!!!!!! haha just like me =P But now he is quite ill so appetite not as good as before. He was very fat and chubby but now slim down le. Only left 3/4 of his original size. These are his old photos when he was stil very greedy and chubby. Havent transfer his recent photos haha.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
It's not even the middle of the year, but this year has already been quite eventful for me. Not that all are bad things but most of it are. And I'm feeling quite tired and frustrated.
Last year dec, coming to Jan this year, my greataunt passed away. I'm actually quite close to her and she used to dote on me. So I actually feel quite guilty that I did not get to see her for the last time. Within that month that she passed away, I went to visit her twice, but did not get to talk to her. First time that I went, she was sleeping. Twice time, she was sent to hospital due to complications. And the last time was the time that she was gone.
Subsequently, early this year I was "busy" looking for job. I think it should be considered relatively smooth for me. Though I got a few rejections, I still managed to secure one, and me rejected a few lolx, despite the not so good market and economy.
So I started a new life in Feb. A diff life that I had always lived in my 24 years. After started working, I just feel that my whole life is actually quite boring and meaningless. Everyday I just work. In the past, I hope that my work can actually make a diff to someone's life. To help them in some ways. But think I overestimated myself. And after started working, I realised that to struggle in a world alone, to fend off "arrows", to be always aware of what to say or not to say, to pretend to be friends with people you cannot stand, is a very tiring, mentally and physically, and exhausting affair. Working without motivation is a torture. But in life not everything can go your way. Somehow this is a practical world. Even if it's torturous, you still have to do it to survive.
It's nice to have dreams when you are young. But you need a lot of motivation and determination to pursue your dream. The energy to pursue what you dream for will wane as you stay in a dog world for long. However, I'm still happy to get a decent job and at least I dun really hate it. Just that I'm feeling stressed cause I have high expectations. So whenever I made a mistake or don't understand something, I will feel very demoralised.
Mar was a time when everything just came together, one after another. First my grandma passed away. Handling a funeral is a very mental draining affairs. And it didn't help when your father is not on good terms with your uncle. But luckily for me I don't need to handle them. This kind of tough affair is my bro's job. But to hear my father repeating his grouses over and over again didn't serve much to reduce the vexation. And the grumble doesn't stop after the funeral ended, it continued everyday, every moment.
Apr was the time when my darling went over to Japan. To me it's a test of our relationship again. Cause I will throw tantrum every now and then when he is not with me. It's just so weird not to have him around.
Now May, almost everyone in my family seems to be taking turn to fall sick. My mom "sprained" her ankle. But till now it's our and the doc's assumption that she sprained her ankle. Cause she herself didn't even know whether she sprained her ankle or not and when she hurt it. During this period, I realised that I hate to do housework. Everyday after work, I had to rush home to do the housework. After I'm done with the work, it will be time for me to sleep. Now I know why is it so important for the ladies in my office to knock off on the dot and to rush back home after work. It's really amazing that they can endure it for so many years.
After my mom recovered, she suddenly felt the pain at her ankle again this week. But at least not as serious as the previous time. At this same period my father ankle is in pain too and can barely walk. Just 1 week ago, pickles had diarrhea and had to bring him to doc. After taking med for a few days, he was getting better. But his appetite is not returning. Nontheless at least his dumps were not as wet. And he was able to shit out. During the time he had diarrhea, his shit just stuck in his butt and we had to dig it out for him. But now, few days after he recovered, he is having diarrhea again. And he is not eating and drinking. Have to bring him to vet again. Guinea pig life span is about 4-5 years, but he is only 3 years and 3 months old. I'm worried that it's cause of his age. But he still "seems" young to me. And I really hope it's not due to his age.
I don't know what will happen in the later part of the year. But till now I feel that it had been rather eventful already. Which is quite unusual compared to previous years.
Feeling so moody and tired.
Last year dec, coming to Jan this year, my greataunt passed away. I'm actually quite close to her and she used to dote on me. So I actually feel quite guilty that I did not get to see her for the last time. Within that month that she passed away, I went to visit her twice, but did not get to talk to her. First time that I went, she was sleeping. Twice time, she was sent to hospital due to complications. And the last time was the time that she was gone.
Subsequently, early this year I was "busy" looking for job. I think it should be considered relatively smooth for me. Though I got a few rejections, I still managed to secure one, and me rejected a few lolx, despite the not so good market and economy.
So I started a new life in Feb. A diff life that I had always lived in my 24 years. After started working, I just feel that my whole life is actually quite boring and meaningless. Everyday I just work. In the past, I hope that my work can actually make a diff to someone's life. To help them in some ways. But think I overestimated myself. And after started working, I realised that to struggle in a world alone, to fend off "arrows", to be always aware of what to say or not to say, to pretend to be friends with people you cannot stand, is a very tiring, mentally and physically, and exhausting affair. Working without motivation is a torture. But in life not everything can go your way. Somehow this is a practical world. Even if it's torturous, you still have to do it to survive.
It's nice to have dreams when you are young. But you need a lot of motivation and determination to pursue your dream. The energy to pursue what you dream for will wane as you stay in a dog world for long. However, I'm still happy to get a decent job and at least I dun really hate it. Just that I'm feeling stressed cause I have high expectations. So whenever I made a mistake or don't understand something, I will feel very demoralised.
Mar was a time when everything just came together, one after another. First my grandma passed away. Handling a funeral is a very mental draining affairs. And it didn't help when your father is not on good terms with your uncle. But luckily for me I don't need to handle them. This kind of tough affair is my bro's job. But to hear my father repeating his grouses over and over again didn't serve much to reduce the vexation. And the grumble doesn't stop after the funeral ended, it continued everyday, every moment.
Apr was the time when my darling went over to Japan. To me it's a test of our relationship again. Cause I will throw tantrum every now and then when he is not with me. It's just so weird not to have him around.
Now May, almost everyone in my family seems to be taking turn to fall sick. My mom "sprained" her ankle. But till now it's our and the doc's assumption that she sprained her ankle. Cause she herself didn't even know whether she sprained her ankle or not and when she hurt it. During this period, I realised that I hate to do housework. Everyday after work, I had to rush home to do the housework. After I'm done with the work, it will be time for me to sleep. Now I know why is it so important for the ladies in my office to knock off on the dot and to rush back home after work. It's really amazing that they can endure it for so many years.
After my mom recovered, she suddenly felt the pain at her ankle again this week. But at least not as serious as the previous time. At this same period my father ankle is in pain too and can barely walk. Just 1 week ago, pickles had diarrhea and had to bring him to doc. After taking med for a few days, he was getting better. But his appetite is not returning. Nontheless at least his dumps were not as wet. And he was able to shit out. During the time he had diarrhea, his shit just stuck in his butt and we had to dig it out for him. But now, few days after he recovered, he is having diarrhea again. And he is not eating and drinking. Have to bring him to vet again. Guinea pig life span is about 4-5 years, but he is only 3 years and 3 months old. I'm worried that it's cause of his age. But he still "seems" young to me. And I really hope it's not due to his age.
I don't know what will happen in the later part of the year. But till now I feel that it had been rather eventful already. Which is quite unusual compared to previous years.
Feeling so moody and tired.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Have you ever been in a situation whereby you don't know whether you have been touched? Today the bus was crowded as usual. And I was the last few, the 2nd last to be exact, to board the bus. After I got on the bus, there was no space so I had to stand on the upper step of the bus. I was just waiting for the bus to go. Suddenly, I think someone grope or touched my butts. So I turned back and saw an Indian guy. He was in a good mood as he was humming some song. When I turned back, he immediately said sorry. But I just glared at him. And he immediately stop humming.
I don't know whethe he did it intentionally or it was an accident. As he was standing behind me and I was in front of the scanning machine. He will have to bypass me to scan his card. So I hope that it was really an accident. And I don't want to think too much of it. At least for the rest of the journey, everything was fine.
I don't know whethe he did it intentionally or it was an accident. As he was standing behind me and I was in front of the scanning machine. He will have to bypass me to scan his card. So I hope that it was really an accident. And I don't want to think too much of it. At least for the rest of the journey, everything was fine.
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